thanksgiving 2005

ok this thanksgiving majorly sucked in my PoV. even though i got to stay home i wasnt treated as well, i was ignored, and treated like a child. not to mwntion my family officially hates me for dyeing my hair and wearing 'non girly' clothes. they find it uncivilized for a girl to be a total tomboy. when they saw my school picture they said NOW WHY CANT YOU DRESS LIKE THIS EVERYDAY!!  my feelings were hurt and i went to talk to ryan about it. Later on i wanted to get AWAY from my family, so i locked my door. then i heard them complaining about how i didnt help with anything and my mom, who didnt want to piss them off, was forced to agree even though she knows damn well i was up at 11 and peeled 4 BAGS OF POTATOES. then they made fun of me for working at mc donalds. i was like ZOMG u guys SUCK ASS and i locked myself in my room until dinner. then at dinner i was gunna sit with the grown ups cause i mean im 15 im the oldest in this famly now, i deserve some self respect to my age. my aunts were like WHO SAID U COULD SIT THERE!? SIT WITH YOUR COUSINS im like you mean your kids and my siblings -.-; i was like no i sat there for 15 years i deserve to sit here cause im a teenager and im NOT  a little kid anymore! then she goes well your brother and sister feel lonely go over there. im like make me. then she ngets in a tissy fit with my mom for talking back at her my mom comes over and tells me to sit at the little kid table. i was so pissed that i refused to eat anything. my aunt was like danielle eat something your mother made all this food just for us to feast on, go get some carbs you lil carb eater. i was like OMG WOMAN YOU HAVE PISSED ME OFF FOR THE LAST TIME!!! my family makes fun of me for only eating like carbohydrates. now im not THAT picky like i eat vegetables, just not a lot and lets just say i only eat meat if im allowed to drench it in ketchup. my aunt christine felt bad for me and let me take her seat at the table i refused, i dont take pity, as much as she was trying to be nice i despise my dads family. since i was 9 years old i knew one day i would not like them. and now today i realized they are SO not my type of people. they dont care about my swimming or my acedemics or anything. they dont care if i run away for crying out loud. i mean i only have respect for 4 ppl in my dads family. my aunt shirley [i have the most respect towards her, shes a strong person /ok] my aunt christine and uncle danny [best people ever!] and my grandma [shes to damn nice] and practically everyone else i hate. i know its a strong word to be saying towards a family and i know some of you may say to me, in the future they'll be like the ones you turn to. i say no. so ya i know my veiws have a chance to change in the future but for now it stays at the emotion of hate.

Tomorrow i go to hershey park for the weekend with kids 4 years younger than me and no one my age but wth ROLLER COASTERS BIATCH and most of my brothers friends think im cool so ya it wont be as bad. at least ill have time to calm myself from today.

this is all i have for now next update to be expected towards the end of this month o and my report card >.>


English 2 - 85
US History 1 - 95
Spanish 2A - 83
Phys Ed. 2 - 95 [its amazing how i got this grade when i forgot my clothes for almost half the semester]
Honors Biology - 65 [i changed out of this class in the beginning of this marking period]
Band - 99
Geometry A - 90

ya i changed a few of my classes around but hell whatever im out. peace.

Current Music: Swing Swing - The All-American Rejects
Current Mood: PISSED OFF